I laid my eyes on the clouds, which were marching with their cotton boots. They sang an intoxicating song, like the song of Gitit. I asked them with my husky voice, “Where is he?” They kept singing with their sceptical voices. I repeated my question, but they were still ignoring me. I repeated… repeated… and repeated, shouted and cried aloud, but they just continued singing.

It was useless… I should have killed the diamond since it started shining, but now it was too late, the emerald was embedded deep inside my seeking heart, crowned by illusive dreams.

Then I put my eyes on the sand where the crabs chased invisible prey. I tried to talk to them but they were too busy with their futile hunt. I compelled my legs to walk; I was shocked to find that my legs were paralyzed. I could neither walk nor sit, and then I started to cry. I shouted to the little light that stood in front of me, “Why did you do this to me? Throw me away… further than hell but nearer than the Paradiso. Take away this emerald and let me lay down on my nest.” I thought I felt like The Light was taking over the emerald from my heart. Finally, I could be free from this precious stone, it was too big and too great for me, I could not stand it any longer.

But in fact I was wrong! The Light never took the emerald away; on the contrary it became much bigger than before. I felt like I could die, but I could not fall to the earth, my legs were still paralyzed. I closed my eyes and hoped that it was just a dream; I expected that when I opened my eyes again, I would find the emerald gone or at least back to its former size. I counted to 100 then opened my eyes. The emerald was still there, 1 million times bigger than before. I looked at it horrified. I wanted to close my eyes again so I did not need to see it anymore, but I was too afraid, what if the emerald became bigger again during the period my eyes were closed? Desperate, I looked up at the sky to see the clouds even though they ignored me. Now I found they were looking at me silently, but I realized that they were not looking at me, they were looking at something before me.

I had been too busy with the emerald so I forgot The Light. Just as the emerald became much bigger than before, so too did The Light become much bigger. The Light was much bigger, greater and lighter than the emerald, and also… more beautiful. I was bewitched by the glory of The Light. I was suddenly mute and fully paralyzed until The Light touched me so gently and softly; He made me warm and healed from my paralysis. After many tears and dark years, The Light spoke to me. I guess He must be so angry with me, but again and again…. I was really wrong.

The Light pulled me to His embrace and then said, “I have given that emerald to you, since you deserve it. You thought that it is too precious and too great for you, but it is not. No one else can possess it for it is only created for you. It became bigger and bigger and made you so scared because you only kept it deep inside your heart. I have given it to you (since I planned to create you) not for being hidden, but for being shown, so you could bless the others with its shine. You were too scared of the emerald; you thought that you couldn’t deal with it, that it must be given to someone else. But I tell you, it’s only for you, nobody can use it except you. I gave it to you because I know that you can use it and you are the one. You thought that you were unable because you were always looking at the emerald. If you just kept your gaze on Me, you would find that I am bigger and greater than the emerald. I have created you and I have given the emerald to you, and you should know that I will strengthen you and give you power to use the emerald so you can be a blessing to this world. I have brought you this far not just for leaving you. I will help you to control the emerald, I will teach you how to make it brighter than ever, I will show you how to direct its shine to the others. I would not give you a dream without giving you strength to make it true. Just believe in it, as it is yours!”

I felt peace surrounding my body and then closed my eyes, now without having to worry that the emerald would become bigger again. In my closing eyelids, the apples of my eyes danced in the midst of the white and light throne. They kept dancing until I heard the bell ringing aloud. Morning had come and I had just had a very great dream.